11: Open - Nov 2021

Unhealed Wounds

I took off my mask 
and I replaced it with your mouth…
Scandalous and reckless,
I know!
But I couldn’t resist the answer of my prayer,
the replacement of the fabric touch
with your half eaten skin upon my lips…
Now, I returned to uproot with my small teeth
whatever is left covering your skeleton…
I swallowed each one of your freckles 
like antidepressant pills
hoping to cure my incurable thoughts
wearing white dresses
wandering around like inmates
in the gloomy hall
of the sanatorium of my mind…
I chewed indolently each one of your wounds
trying to taste how bitter your past was…
The one on your eyebrow
tastes like childhood…
tastes like innocence…
like the fake tears you shed
for your parents’ attention…
like your unexplainable desire
to grow up…
The one marking your hand 
tastes like self loathing
and denial towards me…
Dry blood translated as 
repressed rage and escapism…
And after your exhibited stories on your body
having been interpreted by my tongue,
they followed the stairway
right down to my throat…
I swallowed every living proof 
of your past experiences…
My stomach aches
full of your injured flesh
that still remains undigested…
My stomach turned into the grave
of your unspoken traumas…
Your scars are safe inside of me…
But your inner child,
imprisoned in my uterus,
begs for justice
for always being defenseless by you…
He scratches with his dirty claws
my loins to spit him out…
But now that’s impossible,
since I’ve become the impersonation
of your unhealed wounds
that you abandoned
to feel invincible…
to feel like a god
with no past neither future…
Maimed from your memories…
No lessons learned…
You stand like a blank canvas,
like an unbaptized baby…
I turned 10 years older
the second I exchanged my youth
with the opportunity to walk in your ripped shoes…
But the feet to which they belong,
run away bare
avoiding leaving behind visible traces
that I could follow 
to come find you,
to find you,
to you,
You…
- Elena Karra

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